Know Your Self Worth
This story basically is from my experience, what I’ve faced and what I might be facing as a novice web developer.
The impostor syndrome basically, affects 70% of software developers at one stage in their career. From Wikipedia, the impostor syndrome is said to be:
A psychological pattern in which an individual doubts their accomplishments and has a persistent internalized fear of being exposed as a “fraud”.
Perhaps, I’ve suffered this in the past. The impostor syndrome, sometimes or do I say most times, isn’t a purposeful doubt from the individual but from the environment itself. One of the side effect of the impostor syndrome is self degradation.
Self Degradation
This has to do with the mental state and also the mentality of a person. Degrading oneself has to do with regarding oneself with low bars. Overthinking the impostor syndrome results to this, one way or the other.
Believing In You ?
No man is an island. Your worth is determined not only by you but the society in general. Talking about me, I’m that boy living behind the fears of unnecessary or childish things.
I probably can code quite all right but, I am overshadowed with the thought that I can’t do this. How foolish I’ll say. Perhaps I’m lazy, reluctant, lack proper guidance or maybe I don’t know anything. Nah, I don’t believe in me.
I could do anything with the code, maybe not anything. The way I get things done is by challenging myself or have someone challenge me. That isn’t hygiene for my mental health, I need to do things voluntarily, but how ? I don’t have an idea.
I can do it !
I’ve lost a couple of jobs because I couldn’t do it whereas I could. I lacked something then — patience, total understanding and common sense.
I have been impatient sometimes especially skipping the basics of something to learning the advanced tracks, it’s not done on purpose; I can understand anything within few minutes. But aye!, I was getting half the knowledge I should be getting. I’ve gone back to learning the basics of somethings.
Total understanding, understanding a situation, context or aim of something leads to perfect execution. I tend to not understand the details because I don’t pay attention to them sternly, I read the preamble and assume I understand the essay, it doesn’t work like that. I learnt that also.
Knowing Your Self Worth
You worth exactly what you think you worth. I got to know my self worth by challenging myself to doing extraordinary things; one reason why I joined the simple-lang team.
I actually thought I couldn’t program well, the APT Challenge proved me wrong because I only learn not practice. I detest the opinion of building small apps, I don’t know why. I love to work under someone, with deadlines, supervision, critics etc. Someone is helping me with that.
Well,
Like I say always, an article is an expression of one’s thought in writing. In this article, I voiced out what I have in mind, hopefully I get positive answers and help.
Hire Me !
If you’ve placement where I could learn to see if I can really code, @ me on twitter, kvng_zeez .
